Everything is good...

I deleted my last post because my feelings were hurt and I wrote it out of anger and feeling hurt. But I just want to say that we laid in bed for about 2hrs just talking and we said EVERYTHING. I told him how i felt, and he apologized and said he wasnt thinking at the time. He also said that he probably made it sound a little more than it was but he completely understood why i was angry with him and he even thanked me for sharing my feelings. And then, I wanted to make sure that we had everything out and that we werent done talking but wishing that we had said more. So we talked about the things he felt, and what I do that either angers or annoys him. And I told him my feelings about sometimes feeling unimportant, and jealous. He said that his friends have been asking and wanting to meet me (cuz i've only met a few) and that he was very happy that I will soon be getting every other weekend off, because he wants me to go to places with him and be a couple. And I told him about how completely unsecure I am in myself and how I always long for everyone to like me (even though I dont always show it). He totally understood and even though i dont see them in myself he listed off a bunch of things that make me special. I was feeling much better by this point. But I decided that since my mom keeps pushing and pushing this spiritual stuff on me, that we should probably talk about that too. And we did, I told him how I was feeling about religion and christianity and he completely understood. We talked a bit about his journey through it and we are on the same page with that now. By the end of our talk I feel 100times closer to him then I have before and I was so happy that I could share my feelings and he could share his. I thought this would be our first fight but even though it took a long time we were able to get everything out without feeling anger or yelling. And the closeness we shared just laying in bed together really helped to calm me down. I would totally recommend that to anyone else who doesnt want to scream and yell at each other when having a fight. I will definately be doing that again in the future.